Thoughts

Here I am in my last night of living in a college dorm, and I can't sleep. It's 3:20 a.m., and sleep is nowhere in sight. This is mostly because I have a whole lot on my mind. It's amazing the difference a year can bring. At this time last year I was really looking forward to going home. I was tired of the guy I was dating, and summer seemed like the logical time to call it off. I also had a terrible living situation with my former suitemates, and I had a pretty hard time adjusting to the university lifestyle. Things are oh so different this year. I said goodbye to Jessica quickly tonight because I probably would have gotten emotional if it was a long and drawn out process. I'm dreading saying goodbye to Tim tomorrow, and I'm just hoping that I can hold it together for that. I spent about an hour talking to my suitemates Jacki and Audrey tonight as they were packing up their room, and it took me back to August when I was helping them figure out everything. I went to eat at the Wolves' Den tonight with Yoonhee for the last time ever. I think it's hitting me all at once that my life is about to take a drastic change, and I'm not sure how I feel about it really. I just think it's really interesting that you learn so much in college, but no one here teaches us how to say goodbye. Tim can make me feel better and get through to me when no one else can, and tonight I was telling about all of this. He told me "This isn't goodbye, it's I'll see you later," and I guess that's the best way to think of it. So to everyone here that I've become so close to over the past year, I'll see you later. And now that I've gotten that out, it's time to get a few hours of much needed sleep before my mother arrives to help me move out tomorrow...