Today has been the saddest day of my life...

Up until this point, I don't believe that I've ever cried for an entire day straight.

It started this morning when I woke up next to the only man that I can ever imagine being with for the rest of my life. I've been dreading this day for weeks. I started crying as soon as I heard the alarm go off, and it hasn't really let up for very long since. That's almost 12 straight hours. I didn't eat breakfast because I knew I'd throw up and that would make me feel even worse if that's possible. I went to some of my classes, but I left campus early because I just couldn't make it through the whole day. Tim came and picked me up after my lab and as soon as I saw his car driving toward me, I started to lose it again. I cried all the way back to Wolf Creek. When we went upstairs to his apartment, and he held me, I felt better, but I just couldn't stop crying. I helped him pack up a few things that he still had to pack, and then he put his stuff in his car and left for the airport. He's been gone for barely an hour, and I can't stand it. I love him more than anything. He's my whole world, and I'm so worried about him. I don't think I'll ever be happy until he's back and I'm in his arms again. I've been praying all day yesterday and today that he'll be safe and that God will let him come back to me. Please pray too.

It has been an incredibly long time since I've written, mostly because I forgot my login information, but also partially because I didn't really have much to say. If I could describe my life in one word right now, it would be "comfortable."

Summer has come and gone. I worked answering the telephone at a company in Clarksville during the week, but that was just basically to help the time during the week pass more quickly so I could get to the weekends that I lived for. I saw Timothy every weekend this summer except for one. The only one that we missed was the Saturday after I had gotten my wisdom teeth out, but it turned out okay because I got to see him that next Tuesday, which was my birthday. I realized this past summer that I'll never be able to live without him, so we've already decided that wherever he goes this coming summer, I'm going too.

I've been living in my apartment for almost 3 weeks now, and I love it. My roommates are fabulous and Tim is right across the street so I split my time 50/50 between here and his apartment.

Life feels very comfortable at the moment, but I can't help but feel that I've yet to reach my peak. All through life, I've felt like I'm constantly building myself up for the next stage, and now is no different. Hopefully it will be comfortable too.