Today has been the saddest day of my life...

Up until this point, I don't believe that I've ever cried for an entire day straight.

It started this morning when I woke up next to the only man that I can ever imagine being with for the rest of my life. I've been dreading this day for weeks. I started crying as soon as I heard the alarm go off, and it hasn't really let up for very long since. That's almost 12 straight hours. I didn't eat breakfast because I knew I'd throw up and that would make me feel even worse if that's possible. I went to some of my classes, but I left campus early because I just couldn't make it through the whole day. Tim came and picked me up after my lab and as soon as I saw his car driving toward me, I started to lose it again. I cried all the way back to Wolf Creek. When we went upstairs to his apartment, and he held me, I felt better, but I just couldn't stop crying. I helped him pack up a few things that he still had to pack, and then he put his stuff in his car and left for the airport. He's been gone for barely an hour, and I can't stand it. I love him more than anything. He's my whole world, and I'm so worried about him. I don't think I'll ever be happy until he's back and I'm in his arms again. I've been praying all day yesterday and today that he'll be safe and that God will let him come back to me. Please pray too.