Thoughts...

Lately, I've found myself contemplating life more so than usual. I'm really not sure what brought this on. All of my girl friends here at State are now in relationships, or about to be in relationships. For a while, I was a little bummed about it, but now I'm starting to realize, that I really enjoy being single. I enjoy being out on my own, making my own decisions, and not having to answer to anyone. For the first time in my life, I'm embracing my independence, and as a result, this is becoming one of the happiest times of my life. I love having the freedom to go out with different groups of friends every night, and making plans at the last minute without having to inform anyone else of what I'll be doing for the evening. I love being able to make my own schedule and not having to coordinate it with anyone else. I never really went through that whole self discovery phase. I've always been pretty comfortable with who I am, but I've never taken the time to enjoy being myself. I've come to realize that right now, it should be all about me. I'm glad that I don't have to lean on someone else to see my worth as a person. I don't need someone else to plan my life around. I'm going to do what I want with my life, and I'm going to do it on my terms. If I end up falling in love, I believe that things will fall into place, but if not, I'm doing just fine on my own.